[ Her brow furrows and she puts her hands on either side of his face. ]
I'm surviving. I don't know if that means I am being efficient, or functional. I can't sleep. I don't sleep. It's making things difficult. I hate being without you. I hate it. There are people here who think they know my name because they know a woman named Natasha, a spy, a SHIELD agent, but I'm not her, and now? She's gone anyway.
I've made alliances. I've demanded they call me Natalia. I've been drunk; that was difficult. I went outside the dome and saw what happened to the people of this planet. I can't sleep.
I am not fully functional but I am alive and I want that. To be alive. To remember, even in pieces, even in thinly sliced cuts that make me feel like I'm bleeding emotions all over everyone. Because I want to remember you. Because I was afraid you weren't going to come.
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I'm surviving. I don't know if that means I am being efficient, or functional. I can't sleep. I don't sleep. It's making things difficult. I hate being without you. I hate it. There are people here who think they know my name because they know a woman named Natasha, a spy, a SHIELD agent, but I'm not her, and now? She's gone anyway.
I've made alliances. I've demanded they call me Natalia. I've been drunk; that was difficult. I went outside the dome and saw what happened to the people of this planet. I can't sleep.
I am not fully functional but I am alive and I want that. To be alive. To remember, even in pieces, even in thinly sliced cuts that make me feel like I'm bleeding emotions all over everyone. Because I want to remember you. Because I was afraid you weren't going to come.